1st Trimester and Lessons Learned

If you haven't already heard I guess the title gave it away and would explain why I haven't written in months. 

We're having a baby!!! Due April 6th and despite how hard it has been we are thrilled! Need some laughs? Enjoy the video we made to announce it. 



We are now at 15 weeks and already learning so much. I'd be lying to you if I said it has been all unicorns and rainbows, in fact it was the exact opposite. It has been so different than anything I've ever experienced in my life. BUT, it has taken me a long time to get here, I wouldn't trade it for anything. And because I don't want to forget it I'm going to share my experience here. Read, don't read, but here it is anyway. 

1. Sacrifice: Beginning of June I started a new job. My position was Marketing Director for this magazine company that was on the beginning of some exciting growth. The team was the best I've ever worked with and it was a place I could lead and be creative. 

We found out I was pregnant end of July and within days the nausea and throwing up kicked in. Without going into to many details I could barely do my job. Over a months time I had gone to the ER twice. First time for a hemorrhage, the second time was because of stress and dehydration after a too busy day at work. After first going part time at work, a ton of prayers, and that second hospital scare, Blake and I decided I should quit and find something a little less stressful. This little baby was not loving the stress of my job and I was only working part-time. 

I thought quitting would be easy. But then I found my way into a temp office to just get some work to hold me over so I wouldn't get bored or restless, and I left feeling like an emotional wreck. I had worked so hard over the past few years in my jobs to find myself sitting in a temp agency. It was a little bit of a blow for my pride. But then after some serious tears and hugs from Blake I had a humbling moment. For the past 6 years more than anything I wanted to be a mom, I wasn't giving up my career for nothing, I was giving up my career for the best career in the world. 

2. Gratitude: I'd be lying if there weren't days in the first few weeks where I wondered if I could get through this, if it would even bet worth it, all sorts of thoughts I'm not proud of. I knew this was what I wanted but I was having a really hard time remembering that. But then I started writing in my gratitude journal again. Just forced myself to find three things that day that I was grateful for. I started being grateful that my body could grow this little baby, even if it meant being so sick all the time. It changed me! I still had bad days, I wasn't getting any better, but the negative thoughts were becoming less and less. 

3. God's Plan: Don't get me wrong, this is a lesson I already knew, but I was really reminded of it. Quitting my job was not an easy thing for me, as I'm sure you've already caught onto. But I knew I was supposed to. I had no doubt in my mind that saying goodbye to my current career was the right step. It was what Heavenly Father wanted me to do, to put my family first. We've seen so many blessings come by following that plan. And knowing we had that confirmation has made it a lot easier each and every day. 

So those are just two of the many, many lessons I learned. And I know I'm going to learn so much more. But guys, I'M HAVING A BABY!!!!! Blake and I have never been more excited. We found out about a week after our 1st anniversary and we are so excited to grow our little family. 

Stay awesome, 


2 comments:

  1. I’m sorry it’s been so rough but I love your lessons learned, you are amazing! I’m excited to see your little one!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Amazing post! You are an inspired women that I so admire! You will see how worth these babies will be to you. I would do it again, with all the sorrow, pain and "fetal position" moments that I have had. Yet, gratitude fills my heart when I remember and have seen the power of a family and of God in my life... YES! I WOULD DO IT AGAIN! Love you, Sierra!

    ReplyDelete

Follow @ Instagram

-
Back to Top